My fucking shoulder. I am so over it. Over the past few days, it has started hurting more, not less, and I am worried that something is terribly wrong. Reaching for things a week ago didn’t cause the jolts of pain I am now feeling at even the slightest extension of my arm. I go see my PT tomorrow and will ask her about it, but I have a yucky, sinking feeling in my gut about it right now. Like something ripped or tore inside. If this damn operation didn’t work, after all I have gone through, I will go postal. If after over a year of increasing pain, multiple failed therapies, and finally (being assured by my doctor that this would be the fix) a 10,000 dollar operation that I can’t afford and still haven’t paid off, this all amounts to nothing? Do I get my money back at least? Do I sue? Or am I likely just screwed, totally screwed? What is the process? I am just venting right now because I need to. Because I am over this pain and many months of never having a full night’s sleep. I am over all of it, and depressed as hell at the possibility that it is getting worse, not better. Thanks, readers, for letting me get that off my chest.
Worried, upset
15
Nov
2010